The Gozum Show

It’s nice to wake up after a full sleep. It’s also nice to wake up out of your own accord. It’s nice that you don’t have to rush yourself into preparing for work. There are a couple of nice things that happened this morning. Unfortunately, a breakfast was not one of them. Oh, I did have breakfast. But it was not as nice as I wanted it to be. Who am I to choose?

I then proceeded to preparing for mass. Today is Ash Wednesday. It is the official start of the Lenten season for the Catholics. It also reminds people that they come from ash and will return to ash. No one is immortal as opposed to what I have been reading lately. Nicholas Flamel and Percy Jackson definitely construed my ideas of immortal beings. The nice morning was punctuated by an emotional celebration of the mass. The day couldn’t get any better.

The day in the office, though, was the complete opposite of nice. I could not focus and I do not have the drive to work this week. I did little tasks but none of the big projects I handle. I just don’t know what it is with me this week. Or maybe I am just worried about my 2D echo exam this Saturday. I don’t think that I can do anything about it so I don’t get the reason why I am worrying.

Also, I am much more inclined to reading and studying for my exam this Friday. That totally conquered my mind for the week. I want to have a good grade in this subject. I want to have high marks. I want to ace this exam. I want to achieve what I was not able to achieve when I was in undergraduate studies – a Latin honor. I want a cum laude award when I graduate with a master’s degree. I want that. I want that so bad.

The weather is so freaky. The combination of cold mornings and hot afternoons is taking a toll on everybody. Even the office could not handle the heat. By 1 PM, the heat traveled to my area. I am seated near the glass panel. The distance could be less than half of my height. It was so hot that I wanted to take siesta then and there. Siesta, I did. There weren’t many people in the office because they had late lunch because of the Ash Wednesday mass in the building. I took my chance and I was able to nap. I won’t say that I was satisfied.

I feel guilty about not working conscientiously this week because I am so preoccupied by studies. I might need to do better next week. Speaking of next week, I can’t wait for it. I’ll be in Boracay, baby.

It is Monday again.

I woke up to the alarm made by the online alarm clock. I try to employ as many as possible so that I could, hopefully, wake up to one of them. The day starts early for me especially that it is a Monday. I have to go to the terminal early because passengers are a handful on this day.

I didn’t have trouble getting out of bed. I am on a motivation that I don’t want tardiness on my DTR for the rest of the year. I was successful in January, February has a lot less number of days so it wouldn’t be so hard.

I was able to eat breakfast from the last night’s leftovers. I was also able to finish my entry regarding our Pinatubo escapade. That was such a great adventure. I hope we could climb mountains again in the future.

I arrived at the office early and there weren’t many people. I did my usual morning routine – check mails, drink water (that’s supposed to be coffee), check my accounts – before I continued with work.

I have a small dilemma right now. I have this document that needs the approval of the Legal department. The thing is that we need to send a soft copy first for them to review it and then have the hard copy signed by the Legal Head. I did both of those things. However, they sent me the soft copy back and included some document that I need to review and ensure that the stuff written in it is also included in the document. The hard copy, though, was signed by the Legal Head.

I could totally do away with their requested revisions and continue with the sign-off. I am not going to do that because I want things to be done rightly. I need to edit the document first and have the next document signed again.

I also opened my review materials for Friday’s exam. When I am so sick of doing work, I turn to academics to save me from death by boredom. My mind is on a roll today. I could hardly believe that I am using all of my brain’s capacity. Or so I think.

The morning was a bit long. The afternoon was longer. There were times that my eyes couldn’t handle the drowsiness that I dozed off for quite a number of times. I really need my coffee or I need to find some other way to keep myself up during the day.

I am back from my semi-hiatus.

The weekend has been very busy with all the birthday celebration and hang-outs. My social life has never flourished like this in the past. It took its toll on me this week.

What am I saying?

For the past two days, I have been experiencing palpitations. It isn’t the kind that is reminiscent of something that is romantic. Whenever I am sitting down, it is all the I could feel and think about it. In the end, it bothered me so much that I have to go to the clinic and have myself checked. They said that my blood pressure is normal. They gave me drowsy medicine and let me stay in the clinic to sleep.

SCORE.

I have two days of sleeping in the clinic during the afternoon. That’s not the point but it is helpful that I get to sleep during the afternoon downtime. The doctor advised me to talk to cardiologist and try to have myself checked. Tomorrow, I will be going to the doctor. It was a good thing that I haven’t used my free specialist check-up from the executive check-up.

I just hope that it isn’t too serious. I just hope that it’s just an anxiety attack like the doctor suggested yesterday. Tomorrow, I will be going to work and attend a meeting then I will be going directly to the doctor in Shangri-La. I just hope that there’s a pint of Ben and Jerry’s at the supermarket after.