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Are you gay?

Mon, 28 May 2012 22:57:19 +0800

I like boys. I guess so. Yes.

In that moment, I knew. There was no turning back and no hesitations of leaving. I’ve had enough and...

Mon, 28 May 2012 22:55:00 +0800

In that moment, I knew. There was no turning back and no hesitations of leaving. I’ve had enough and staying in that relationship would mean that I lose all of my humanity or what is left of it. I was in denial at first and I kept making excuses for his behavior; but, time has come and like a balloon overfilled with air, I exploded.

I opened the door, ran through the hallway and into the street. I opened my umbrella and made my way to the dock. This used to be our happy place. You were the ship to my port; you introduced to me a lot of new things and, in exchange, I give you the novelty love and pampering you deserve. It was where the ocean meets the sea; you tried to open me to a lot of adventure that my self-isolation once hindered me from doing. Tonight, the port was silent as ships wouldn’t bother go through the storm and spoil their goods. The ocean as rough and the waves became a weapon of devastation.

This storm is a lot like what happened to our relationship – destructive, forceful and menacing. It was not something I thought we’d evolve into. I suddenly find myself putting the umbrella down and dancing in the rain. I wanted to get through the storm. I didn’t know how. The only thing I am sure of is that I didn’t want to do it with you - again.

HONESTY HOUR!

Mon, 28 May 2012 22:06:00 +0800

HONESTY HOUR!

It should be so easy to tell you how I'm feeling but I can't stop stuttering.

Mon, 28 May 2012 21:50:07 +0800

Random Fact: I drink Yakult every working day.

Mon, 28 May 2012 21:38:00 +0800

I don’t know when this habit started. But, as far as I can remember, every 9AM I will go down to the convenience store in the lobby and by myself a bottle of Yakult.

Well, it does provide good things as I have regular bowel movement and we know what it does to one’s body.

When I feel like it, I would also order a full breakfast meal to get me through the morning.

Work Day 266

Mon, 28 May 2012 21:16:16 +0800

I got into the office so early! And I am happy because I can still continue my May streak of having no late time ins!

I realized that I may still be alone today because JE is still not in (he’s usually comes in earlier than me) and Sam texted that she cannot make it today because of sickness.

It didn’t bother me much because I am going on a half-day leave because I need to go to UP for my medical exams.

I didn’t have time to be bored because I got an influx of work from last week and I focused on that the whole morning. I must say that I made good use of my time when I was in the office.

More work for tomorrow! I hope to be as productive!

Medical

Mon, 28 May 2012 17:42:21 +0800

So, took a 0.5 day leave just to go to UP to have my medical exam. I feel like a freshman again! When I arrived at the Infirmary, I asked the reception person about the venue of the medical exam. She looked at me and asked if I was a freshman.

YES!

Papasa pa pala akong freshie.

Anyway, I went to the said venue and the guy had me fill out forms. I went to the table with only one person sitting. Then, napansin ko na medyo crush-able type of person. And he kept glancing at me. Napansin ko nga na binasa niya yung welcome letter ko from the Grad Office.

Halos sabay lang kami natapos then halos sabay din kaming nagpaikot-ikot sa Infirmary para sa aming medical exam. All throughout the process napapansin ko din naman na tumitingin siya sa akin.

Syempre, hindi naman ako umasa na lumapit siya sa akin or kausapin niya ako. Hindi na din ako nagtangka dahil incoming freshman siya at ako ay incoming freshman din - sa graduate school nga lang.

HELLO 7 YEARS AGE GAP. HAHAHA.

I hope him all the good things UP has to offer, though. At alam ko ang apelyido niya.

And, I have to go back on Thursday for the results of the x-ray. At sabi ng dentist na I have three teeth for extraction. Oh well, papel.

I wish that you would notice me.

Mon, 28 May 2012 17:20:04 +0800

Photo

Mon, 28 May 2012 16:56:58 +0800

HOME! Ang sarap mag-siesta kaso alanganin na yung oras, baka...

Mon, 28 May 2012 16:19:34 +0800

HOME!

Ang sarap mag-siesta kaso alanganin na yung oras, baka magising ako sa gitna ng gabi. Kaya ako ay magbabasa na lang muna at maghahanap ng mga movies na pwedeng i-download.

Salamat pala sa mga nag-suggest ng movies! Nakapila na sila. Tapos na kasi ang TV season eh kaya wala na akong pinapanood bukod sa SYTYCD.

Woot! It’s official!

Mon, 28 May 2012 15:27:04 +0800

Woot! It’s official!

lazyredd replied to your post: LOVE is a four-letter word. meron ako ng album na yan pero di ko pa...

Mon, 28 May 2012 11:36:36 +0800

lazyredd replied to your post: LOVE is a four-letter word.

meron ako ng album na yan pero di ko pa napapakinggan ng buo

Maganda naman yung songs para sa akin. Chill lang yung vibe ng album. Simple melody pero nice yung lyrics. :)

LOVE is a four-letter word.

Mon, 28 May 2012 11:15:13 +0800

I know why I like this Jason Mraz album so much. The songs and its lyrics are the things I want to say but cannot. The album just put into words and melody my thoughts and how I feel about my world today.

Got this gingerbread cookie from Ms Jo. So, I guess lahat sila...

Mon, 28 May 2012 10:44:44 +0800

Got this gingerbread cookie from Ms Jo.

So, I guess lahat sila ay kasama sa mission na patabain ako.

Sorry, guys. Hindi ko pa panahon para tumaba.

HAHAHA.

Just know that wherever you go, you can always come home.

Mon, 28 May 2012 10:35:20 +0800

"Begin at once to live, and count each separate day as a separate life."

Mon, 28 May 2012 08:30:13 +0800

“Begin at once to live, and count each separate day as a separate life.”

- Seneca

Good Morning

Mon, 28 May 2012 08:25:13 +0800

Mukhang walang tao today. Naka-SL si Sam and wala pa si JE. So, good luck sa kanila after lunch dahil scheduled akong pumunta ng UP mamaya.

So, do I have to work now? It’s Monday and alam naman natin na very slow ang movement sa office kapag Monday. And, it’s too early for work dahil wala pang 8:30AM.

HAHAHA.

Excited for today. I hope I get everything done in time for enrollment next week. Pero, honestly, ayoko pa mag-trabaho. Gusto ko pa mag-beach or pumunta sa kung anong resort at mag-swimming at kumain!

Padaan lang uli. :D

Sun, 27 May 2012 21:53:18 +0800

Padaan lang uli. :D

I want to know what love is.

Sun, 27 May 2012 21:18:20 +0800

Can you show me?

Bakit hindi ako maka-post ng pictures sa kahit anong site? Kanina pa ako nag-try tapos nag-restart...

Sun, 27 May 2012 20:09:14 +0800

Bakit hindi ako maka-post ng pictures sa kahit anong site? Kanina pa ako nag-try tapos nag-restart na din ako. :(